I wish I could just keep everything to myself
Things seem better that way
I don't even care if I have all of these thoughts bottled up inside of me anymore
There's no point in letting people know how I feel when all it got me is to this point in my life
Nothings the same and it's never going to be
Do I have to keep lying to myself, or continue to lie to you so that I can be happy?
Why do I feel like this is all a game & I'm the dice you throw to decide where your fate rests?
It's whatever
I can keep doing what I want behind your back & never be truly happy
or you can let me find a decent person & let me be happy
In the end, I'm not ruining your life, your ruining mine
& nothing I can say or do will ever be good for you
You really don't understand and you never will
There isn't a trace of empathy until you decide you want it
I don't want to become some loner, but if you crave for that sense of acceptance from everyone else in your life, then I will never understand where your coming from myself
I just want to run far away & never come back
Just to have a fresh start
I don't even care anymore
It's whatever
