Thoughts

I don't know why it feels so wrong to do the right thing sometimes.
Maybe because getting caught up in living for yourself, and not for God, just messes with your thoughts and feelings..

I don't know if this is just me being difficult or what, but I don't like doing what I know needs to be done.

I haven't been talking to many people for a little while now because I think I need to first grow in my relationship with Jesus, and then get over this addiction I have of having to be with my friends all of the time.

Even though it doesn't seem like people can be an addiction, I have realized that they really are in my own life.
It's like I get so caught up in my friendships, where I always want to see them and talk to them.
Loneliness sucks, but if I was truly where I wanted to be with God right now, then I doubt this loneliness that comes to me would even exist anymore...

It sucks because I feel as though I've just done my own thing for awhile now. Like always hanging out with many different friends. I love having all of these people in my life, don't get me wrong.. but I honestly feel as though God is making things in my life happen for a reason.

I feel as though I normally always have to talk to my friends first before they talk to me. I've realized that it takes two to tango, but I feel like I put so much into some of my relationships with people, but they aren't giving back what I want.
 It's not like I'm giving up on these people, but it saddens me to a point.

I'm just trying to trust in God to lead me to where he wants me to be in my life.
I know I need to separate myself from many of my friends at this moment to grow in him, and learn who I truly am.

It's so important to become who God's called you to be, but it's just so hard to not get caught up in the world..
 I don't want to live for others or for myself any longer. I want to live for God, but It's going to take many steps toward this goal I've set up for myself.

Feeling wishy-washy with my beliefs isn't good at all, but honestly that's where I am at right now.. I don't feel like I have a strong concept of what is right and what I truly believe in at the moment.

 I wish life was easy, but it's really not at all.. I'm growing up, and people aren't always going to be there for me any longer. I need to be more independent and not rely on others for happiness or anything for that matter.

It sucks, it really does, but if your one of my friends whom I haven't talked to in awhile, just know that I do care about you, I just need this separation to move on with my life and grow as a person in God. Thanks.

These Things Take Time

People expect things to just magically happen in their lives.

Like everything in life is just supposed to be easy.

If everything was easy, what would we learn as human beings?

Would there be a point to anything anymore?

Your life is a test.

You stumble and fall, then you get back up again. 

This happens continuously until you realize what you need to do to get over that road block in your way.

Why can't I be this way or that way?
Everything happens for a reason in a sense.

If you don't think that you can change or do something, than pray about it.

God IS listening!

Be patient. 

Patience is so uncommon these days. It's such a great thing to have, yet it's hard to be this way.

Just Do It.

Learn. Don't expect things to be easy because they never are.

Life is hard, but failing is better than never trying.

You learn from your failures, and obtain great knowledge that can be used in your future.

Listen. People are all different. Take the time to get to know people you wouldn't expect to.

Be careful. Show me your friends, and I will show you your future. (so true)

If you want something in life that you have prayed about over and over again, ask yourself if this is what God really wants for you.

If you find that it's something you WANT and don't necessarily NEED at this moment in time, then it really isn't that relevant for you today.

Make Goals.

It's important to persevere through the hard times, but you should also set goals to improve how you do that.

Maybe you can't move on until you inspect the problem fully, and really want to move on.

Life is a learning process. I know I learn all of the time, and I can't believe all of the things I've realized lately. It's all thanks to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for never giving up on me. <3

My Father, My Abba. I Need You. I Love You. I Can Trust You With My Life.

First Impressions

First Impressions are big!


Okay, now this isn't necessarily factual. Many people may disagree with this statement, that's why I am going to persuade you otherwise.. ;)
 (possibly, probably not though.. xD)


Even if you are one of the low percentages that disagree with this statement, I bet you have judged a person the moment you came in contact with them.. "Oh dang, that girl/guy is fine! I wanna get to know her/him..."


Ever heard of the saying, "Don't judge a book by it's cover." ???
Well that should be something no one does, but honestly, who doesn't do that..?


First impressions are key. If you want someone to like you, then you better make dang sure that you don't mess up the first impression they have on you. 


I remember this one time I walked up to my friend who was talking to a girl at church. For some odd reason I thought this girl looked exactly like someone I've previously met. So of course I approached her and asked her if her name was what I thought it was.. Oddly enough I got her name correct, but it was her first time at church and I kinda freaked her out.. I never met her before, but I met someone who looked just like her and had the same first name.. Now I don't know if that's a weird coincidence, but I totally bombed that first impression. I was kind of hyper at the time too, so she probably thought I was just a crazy stalker and nut-case.


Haha so First Impressions really do matter sometimes...
Most people don't remember what they did when they first met someone.
Fine, sometimes it really doesn't matter, but to those people who judge you on the spot it does..


But who really gives a crap on what they think anyways..


(you do..) ;)


Let's be honest here, the world is super judgmental.
People look at what you say and do, and rate you based on that.
It sucks, it really does.. "And why should we even want to impress these judgmental hypocrites anyways?"

You wanna know why? Because one day that judgmental hypocrite may be your boss, and then you have to obey by their rules or you get fired! How do you like them apples? =P


LOL


THE END!

Myself

I don't necessarily know how I feel sometimes. I just get into these moods where I don't want to deal with anyone or anything. Like I just space out and feel like i'm in a whole different world as well. I know that sounds kind of weird.. 

I'm kind of a pessimist, and it stinks. I feel like life sucks most of the time due to my negative reactions to little situations. 

Example: I'm taking out the trash late at night on a Tuesday, and I carry so much in my hands, that something falls to the ground. I get all pissed just because I dropped that one item.

Sure that doesn't seem like a big deal, but it makes me say things under my breath that i later regret, just because it ticked me off for that one short second..

And when I don't succeed at something or even when my friends joke around about me, I really get ticked off and let it ruin my whole night. I'm more of the type of person that shows my emotions, so that's why most of my friends hate how negative I am. Because I show it. It's probably good that I don't always hide my feelings, but I know I negatively effect people around me, and I hate that about me.

It's good to vent sometimes like I am right now. & It's really good to talk to someone you consider a mentor/good friend because they can't always help, but at least your not hiding your feelings all of the time. It feels so much better to get things off your chest too.

 

The best way to deal with my negativity would probably be to pray and get into the word of God. Of course me being myself, I don't usually do that.. I just listen to music quite a bit, and sometimes talk to one of my friends. I surround myself with good people for the most part and my friends help sometimes, but my attitude isn't going to change in one night. I know it takes time, and I really need to just try something out that could help. If i knew what that was, then maybe, just maybe I would be more content.

I have life pretty good, but I just need to be more Optimistic. I'm very appreciative, don't get me wrong, but I just feel like I wish there was more to life. I hate so many things.. Like for instance, I hate feeling so alone all of the time. I hate being so emotional. I'm a guy, but I feel like I'm so much different than most guys.. Sure i didn't play on any sports teams & I don't really think the same way some guys do, but God made me how I am for a reason, right?

 I wish I was strong both mentally and physically. I'm working on it, but I know I can't do anything without God.. I just want to get over so many things and be happy, but it's hard. I hate making up excuses and feeling sorry for myself. This is a new year, and I HAVE TO change. I need to become more independent as a person. I rely on others to help guide me in life, but of course people can't always help me out. I need to do more things that can help others out, like selfless acts.

This blog is all about me, and I'm not trying to sound conceited or anything, I just want people to read this and comment on whatever they want. Feel free to say anything, but I would kindly appreciate words of advice, rather than harsh crap I don't need to hear. I probably already know how much I suck myself, and I don't need my self-confidence to be even lower than it already is.. Thanks.

Now watch this video! I love his sarcasm.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mdUkLWnkmEM&feature=related